drowning in
a sea of chaos..
a sea of trash..
a sea of disorder...
I am suffocating over and over in chaos,
never ending.
Trapped.
not in my home,
especially not in my mind
or anywhere in the surrounding world.
I have done nothing in my life
but attempt to make order out of disorder.
It is my nature to be OCD like.
Without exterior organization,
without the personal world around me
clean, organized, orderly,
I cannot think, my simply mind does not work.
Usually I retreat into attacking the disorder,
organizing, cleaning, fixing.
It gets so tiring doing that over and over and over
and over and over and over and over.
Only to have it all torn up, trashed,
ravaged immediately.
Then, it has been standard operating procedure,
for me to
start the attempted repair process again and again
and again and again and again and again.
I have quite possibly reached my breaking point.
Write of ordinary things.
It would not come,
I just could not do it?
to find a clear spot or a clear point to
think/consider what I could/should do.
a clean spot to think.
To breath.
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