Why are you yelling at me? This is my greatest moment, stop it!

What an annus horribilis...

Annus_horribilis

We all await this year getting the fuck over!

Yes, after a constant back and forth within my

reptile brain---

YES-NO-YES-NO-YES-YES-YES.

I ordered one.

The Lego I.S.S. kit...

Lego international-space-station

I literally could not help myself.

Often while sitting here writing this blog and

watching Science Fiction shows on television,

I also monitor the I.S.S. live video stream of earth

on one of my other screens.

Yeah, a lot going on...

I was helpless at the thought of having my own

model of the International Space Station on

display in my Nerd Cave..

Especially since Astronaut Satoshi Furukawa

built this same kit while aboard the I.S.S.

Lego kits often increase in value over time,

I might, claim this kit was an investment?

Once constructed and displayed:

 I am sure a Nerdgasam 

will result....

I wondered when coolness would catch

anti-covid protection requirements..

The Blanc Mask 

by Yanko Design has done it.

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This full face mask is loaded with anti-covid tech,

and let's face it--

or I guess not face it when it comes to this item,

It is rabidly cool if you are at all a little bit

beyond the norm...?

I thought the Blanc Mask would be a gazillion dollars,

most cool things are unfortunately....

but I was totally surprised at it's cost of only

 $79.00...?

I may actually order one of these..?

This pandemic is nowhere close to over

and there will be more and more pandemics 

in the future..?

TENS OF THOUSANDS of lives,

a TRILLION dollars,

20 YEARS,

General Mark Milley in a recent briefing states

that:

The United States has, 

in invading Afghanistan:

"achieved a modicum of success"

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Merriam-Webster dictionary--modicum

The United States, is a tribe without

reason, logic or intelligence.

Anything you say now doesn't matter..

Your lies have no power...

The only place you can broadcast your shit

is on Facebook---Facebook---?

People see you as the tiny, corrupt, small man

that you truly are...

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I cannot even begin to describe how TIRED

I am of these pieces of Maga Evangelical shit--!

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Finns and Russians and murder...

It's just a simple matter of "What the hell is going on?"

I have had it easier than most during lockdown.

Because:

I have never felt, truly felt as if I had a tribe---

I have never had that feeling throughout my

entire life, that embrace of 

"belonging" 

of having a real place within a group,

of acceptance without

if's---

from early childhood I knew...
I learned how to pretend to feel, 

to act,

as if I have belonged to various groups.

Groups themselves demand this pretending.

In return

they have pretended that I did almost belong....

We all knew that it was pretend.

I have always been separate,

no matter what the superficial appearance may have been...

I was always waiting to be found out and cast out.

That one day the group would stare at me 

and just know--?

It is now easier, perhaps due to age

since there are no demands on me to 

join, enter, or be forced into a group.

Perhaps, it is simply that with a massive number

of years of living in the pretend mode,

I no longer care...?

Will 2020 end already and the weirdness abate--?

I am sure you are aware by now that

a state helicopter crew working in Utah discovered

a stainless steel monolith in the middle of

totally fucking nowhere..

To prove how "fucking middle of nowhere"

this is, the helicopter crew was conducting a

count of bighorn sheep which go nowhere near

even the slightest hint of civilization...

Even if some bizarre artist planted this thing there,

it would have been never found but for this 

accidental overflight...?

This is so totally bizarre---?

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The Marines are wanting in on the 

Trumpian Space Force fiasco...

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Yeah--that worked out so good for:

Privates Hudson, Vasquez, Drake, Frost, Spunkmeyer, Crowe, and Wierzbowski,

 Corporals Dietrich and Ferro, 

Sergeant Apone, and Lt. Gorman.

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The memory of you already fades...

The vision of you already dims..

Soon you will be simply a bad dream

that slithers away into the night....

Somehow they were all shocked when we dragged them

out of their palaces in the past...???

River of Tears...

Clapton--River of tears--(Live at Budokan